+ Is this some kind of trick?

That you fail, and succeed, and fail again? Are there phases? Phases limited to 4 years? Will it take me 4 years to fail before I attain success once again? I don’t wanna prove her right. The things she said about college achievers who never succeed in the real score. Is it the price to pay? To pay filled with bane. Eats me up every night as I go home and go to bed, buoys me up every morning as I munch on good old breakfast. To deal with it every day, to lose fear in rejection, to deceive the belief. That’s what I try to do every day: shorten those so-called “4 years”. Yup. 

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